Sebastian

This morning I drove my friend Renee and her 5 day old baby, Sebastian, to the pediatrician. It was Renee's first time out of her house since he was born on Friday. It took me some time to get the carseat in correctly. When he was in it he seemed like a little boat in the ocean that was the carseat. Once there, I dropped Renee and the baby off at the door and then parked the car. I didn't know exactly where I was going but I saw a sign that had a kiddie looking font, so I went in and sat down. It was dark, weirdly dark and there were stars and planets on the walls and floor. Behind the reception desk was a huge painting of C-3PO. I thought that Renee must have already been taken back, but it occured to me that if she was in some other Dr's office we would never find each other. I wandered around the atrium and finally saw Renee through a small window hanging up her coat. I had been in the wrong office. The correct office was filled with light and beautiful, playful furniture. When the appointment was over I happily offered to carry Sebastian. People oooooh-ed and aaaaaaah-ed. I let them believe he was my baby until they would ask me how old he was and I stumbled over the number of days and had to ask Renee. We went to the grocery store because Renee wanted to. I would have preferred to take her home and get her back in to bed... the day after Jack was born Thom and I went for a 1/2 an hour walk. I felt so good... felt like I was a superhero... I made this small human WITH MY BODY! We ran in to people and they would ask when he was born and I would say "YESTERDAY!" The next day when the Birth Center nurse came for my home visit I told her with glee how I was walking long distances and she freaked out! She told Thom and Sarah to not let me move again for a week. They were to hover over me and make sure I didn't move too much... who knew you could start hemoragging with too much activity right after giving birth? So today when we were at the grocery store I was thinking of the nurse being stern with my husband and sister for not looking out for me and I was thinking I should be stern with Renee. She was so happy to be out and about buying ice cream and cones, whipped creme and oreos that I just thought this short trip will be okay. Plus, I got to carry Sebastian and have total strangers smile knowingly at me and adoringly at him. I had forgotten how it used to feel being out and about with a small baby... like they were the rock star and you were their personal assistant. I got Renee and Sebastian home safe and sound, undid the carseat, drove home and collapsed. Whew! 

My darling mother emailed me yesterday and asked why I never blog anymore. I was trying to get in the habit of updating Facebook everyday and was doing that while we were recently at Disney World. A facebook update, though, does not have the depth of a blog post... so Mom, I will do my best to update more often!